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January 10, 2023 January 10, 2023

Storm

Lifetime of suppressing the full intensity of my emotions. Now allow myself to feel, and realise how powerful and all-consuming they are. Feels like being thrown about… Lifetime of suppressing the full intensity of my emotions. Now allow myself to feel, and realise how powerful and all-consuming they are. Feels like being thrown about…

January 5, 2023 January 5, 2023

Everything is dark

Everything is dark.  I see bare, delicate branches that shine silver in the winter sun, under a sky of pale blue. I hear the gentle melodies of bird song. I watch as… Everything is dark.  I see bare, delicate branches that shine silver in the winter sun, under a sky of pale blue. I hear the gentle melodies of bird song. I watch as…

January 3, 2023 January 3, 2023

Dark cave

Just want to hide away, to crawl into a dark hole. Never to see another soul. Unending tide of dark waves crash upon me, drowning me as I gasp for air. When I resist or… Just want to hide away, to crawl into a dark hole. Never to see another soul. Unending tide of dark waves crash upon me, drowning me as I gasp for air. When I resist or…

January 3, 2023 January 3, 2023

Freedom

I'm leaving this dark, barren island with its leafless, silent trees. I'm done with living in their shadows. I'm swimming alone - towards the mountains. Towards… I'm leaving this dark, barren island with its leafless, silent trees. I'm done with living in their shadows. I'm swimming alone - towards the mountains. Towards…

October 29, 2022 October 29, 2022

Sensitivity

I see so much beauty in life. I walk in nature and I find myself struck in awe by the magnificence of a a silver web delicately spun amongst crimson brambles, or of… I see so much beauty in life. I walk in nature and I find myself struck in awe by the magnificence of a a silver web delicately spun amongst crimson brambles, or of…

October 28, 2022 October 28, 2022

Nightmares

A mind of sharp colour, vivid shapes - the conjuring of images with acute, intricate detail - capturing all the minutia. Thoughts that travel in all directions and… A mind of sharp colour, vivid shapes - the conjuring of images with acute, intricate detail - capturing all the minutia. Thoughts that travel in all directions and…

October 25, 2022 October 25, 2022

Inner Freedom This feels like a succession of enormous roses blooming…

Inner Freedom This feels like a succession of enormous roses blooming inside and throughout my entire body, in the place of frozen buds that had been hardened in cold… Inner Freedom This feels like a succession of enormous roses blooming inside and throughout my entire body, in the place of frozen buds that had been hardened in cold…

August 13, 2022 August 13, 2022

10/08/22 An Evening walk: The sky is soft and pastel pink below an…

10/08/22 An Evening walk: The sky is soft and pastel pink below an endless blue, the evening hazy and warm. I tread the familiar dry track – stepping over parched stones… 10/08/22 An Evening walk: The sky is soft and pastel pink below an endless blue, the evening hazy and warm. I tread the familiar dry track – stepping over parched stones…

August 12, 2022 August 12, 2022

Morning walk to the Cove: Thick, lush wet grass, beaded with silver…

Morning walk to the Cove: Thick, lush wet grass, beaded with silver drops of rain, dotted with shrubs and brambles. The remnants of a fence- now a single metal wire… Morning walk to the Cove: Thick, lush wet grass, beaded with silver drops of rain, dotted with shrubs and brambles. The remnants of a fence- now a single metal wire…

July 23, 2022 July 23, 2022

A rainy evening Listening intently, with calm pleasure, to the soft…

A rainy evening Listening intently, with calm pleasure, to the soft rushing rain outside my open window. Watching swollen, silver beads form and fall from the… A rainy evening Listening intently, with calm pleasure, to the soft rushing rain outside my open window. Watching swollen, silver beads form and fall from the…

July 23, 2022 July 23, 2022

Stirling Wild, rolling, mountainous, expansive landscapes. Horizons…

Stirling Wild, rolling, mountainous, expansive landscapes. Horizons lined with powerful, silent forms sitting below ominous, swollen grey clouds. Loud music blaring from… Stirling Wild, rolling, mountainous, expansive landscapes. Horizons lined with powerful, silent forms sitting below ominous, swollen grey clouds. Loud music blaring from…

July 23, 2022 July 23, 2022

A weekend in London: Traffic noise, bombardment of the senses in all…

A weekend in London: Traffic noise, bombardment of the senses in all directions, frying sunlight – intensified by the London smog that hangs in the air – humid and… A weekend in London: Traffic noise, bombardment of the senses in all directions, frying sunlight – intensified by the London smog that hangs in the air – humid and…

July 23, 2022 July 23, 2022

Hospital  Observing all around me - quickened pace, scrubs and coffee…

Hospital  Observing all around me - quickened pace, scrubs and coffee in hand - to go, of course. Everything immacutely clean, bright, white except for the friendly… Hospital  Observing all around me - quickened pace, scrubs and coffee in hand - to go, of course. Everything immacutely clean, bright, white except for the friendly…

May 27, 2022 May 27, 2022

Arrival in London Noticing that everywhere sells ‘non-foods’ –…

Arrival in London Noticing that everywhere sells ‘non-foods’ – nutrient-free, calorie dense, loaded with chemicals. Corner shops and supermarkets are heaving with… Arrival in London Noticing that everywhere sells ‘non-foods’ – nutrient-free, calorie dense, loaded with chemicals. Corner shops and supermarkets are heaving with…

May 27, 2022 May 27, 2022

An inner prison  'You seem like a very calm person', I sometimes…

An inner prison  'You seem like a very calm person', I sometimes hear, as I observe the minutia, as my mind races with thought, as my heart is hammering, as my shoulders… An inner prison  'You seem like a very calm person', I sometimes hear, as I observe the minutia, as my mind races with thought, as my heart is hammering, as my shoulders…

May 6, 2022 May 6, 2022

Exhaustion, overwhelm. This heaviness... This weight inside my head,…

Exhaustion, overwhelm. This heaviness... This weight inside my head, behind my eyes. Wanting to withdraw from the world, like a suffering dog quietly waiting to die.… Exhaustion, overwhelm. This heaviness... This weight inside my head, behind my eyes. Wanting to withdraw from the world, like a suffering dog quietly waiting to die.…

May 6, 2022 May 6, 2022

Bursting rainbows Sitting on the densely packed train, wedged into my…

Bursting rainbows Sitting on the densely packed train, wedged into my window seat – watching a continuous treadmill of green fields, contrasted with the occasional… Bursting rainbows Sitting on the densely packed train, wedged into my window seat – watching a continuous treadmill of green fields, contrasted with the occasional…

May 1, 2022 May 1, 2022

Italian Breakfast

Italian Breakfast Testing the breakfast provided – fresh bread roll, ‘brioche’ – which resembles a croissant dotted with sugar flakes, inside is an orange coloured jam.… Italian Breakfast Testing the breakfast provided – fresh bread roll, ‘brioche’ – which resembles a croissant dotted with sugar flakes, inside is an orange coloured jam.…

May 1, 2022 May 1, 2022

Train from Turin to Levanto Comfortable train journey, gazed out of…

Train from Turin to Levanto Comfortable train journey, gazed out of window, marvelling at the rolling, green Italian countryside and the architecture – hills lined with… Train from Turin to Levanto Comfortable train journey, gazed out of window, marvelling at the rolling, green Italian countryside and the architecture – hills lined with…

May 1, 2022 May 1, 2022

Alone in the mountains

Alone in the mountains I breathe in the sweetness of the mountain air during my daily amble into the hillside – listening keenly to the rushing stream, gazing at the… Alone in the mountains I breathe in the sweetness of the mountain air during my daily amble into the hillside – listening keenly to the rushing stream, gazing at the…

May 1, 2022 May 1, 2022

Quiet, peaceful solitude

Quiet, peaceful solitude Alone at last – thinking, reflecting My mind is free to roam; to wonder without interruption Stimulation fades away, my heart slows In my own… Quiet, peaceful solitude Alone at last – thinking, reflecting My mind is free to roam; to wonder without interruption Stimulation fades away, my heart slows In my own…

April 27, 2022 April 27, 2022

Falling in love

Falling in love Feeling high, blood rushing through me, Warm burst of rainbow colour inside, Heart heaving, bounding, on fire Falling in love Feeling high, blood rushing through me, Warm burst of rainbow colour inside, Heart heaving, bounding, on fire

April 27, 2022 April 27, 2022

Alone in anxiety

Alone in anxiety Darkness is surrounding me, squeezing, choking – I can’t breathe Thoughts on loop in an endless cycle – gripping my mind Heart hammering, sweating in my… Alone in anxiety Darkness is surrounding me, squeezing, choking – I can’t breathe Thoughts on loop in an endless cycle – gripping my mind Heart hammering, sweating in my…

April 27, 2022 April 27, 2022

14/04/22: Exploring Cinque Terre

14/04/22: Exploring Cinque Terre The villages truly are beautiful – steep roads lined with yellow, pink, orange, blue houses, built into the hillside that overlooks a… 14/04/22: Exploring Cinque Terre The villages truly are beautiful – steep roads lined with yellow, pink, orange, blue houses, built into the hillside that overlooks a…

April 26, 2022 April 26, 2022

11/04/22: Arriving in Italy Ambling towards the hostel - market…

Ambling towards the hostel - market stalls, graffitied walls, noticing deep brown eyes, converse, jeans or loose, flowing trousers, long… Ambling towards the hostel - market stalls, graffitied walls, noticing deep brown eyes, converse, jeans or loose, flowing trousers, long…

April 26, 2022 April 26, 2022

Fatigue in Salzburg

Feeling absolutely exhausted. Wondering around Salzburg in a daze of fatigue and melancholy, the sky grey and… Feeling absolutely exhausted. Wondering around Salzburg in a daze of fatigue and melancholy, the sky grey and…

April 26, 2022 April 26, 2022

10/03/22 Life and death

The distinctive, festering odour of death is carried in the rushing wind; which billows through my clothes and hair, as I walk along a road lined… The distinctive, festering odour of death is carried in the rushing wind; which billows through my clothes and hair, as I walk along a road lined…

April 26, 2022 April 26, 2022

13/01/22: A winter morning. Beautiful early morning walk in…

Beautiful early morning walk in mid-winter. Frost-coated grass, sky bleeding soft pink into pale blue, a layer of mist hanging silently… Beautiful early morning walk in mid-winter. Frost-coated grass, sky bleeding soft pink into pale blue, a layer of mist hanging silently…

April 26, 2022 April 26, 2022